I seem keep my family worried.HAIZZZ so useless son of me

i seem so useless to my family always keep them worried especially my mom.She always worried about me and she now almost want to reach age of 50.and i keep on make her worried. So they always mother is the one who give a big support to the children. This month is quiet like almost got big problem in my family. Last week, my grand-mom seem very suffer from breath because her lungs contain a lot of water so she cannot drink so much water.My parents brings her to hospital SJMC at subang jaya to see the specialties.Then i receive a call that they will come to visit me. when i go down to see them seem that my mum very tired of working that without my help. I just want to say sorry mum i can't help within few week.Then i want to standby for my repeat of course and this one i want to make more focus to it. if not i will throw my family's faces away. i still 2 more paper aways the BE that i take sure DEAD. so i want to make sure that my CGPA will over 2.0 because last time i got 2.3 haizzzzz. i dunno why that the subject can get A why why i want to get fail because 1 fail i seem that i feel i don't to tell my mum about it (scare make her worried) i want to pass and my target is get a master degree on accounting i want to proceed there . Since that study for two year in this college, i just wonder that did i study in a true course that i want. IT IS OR NOT!! My aunt seem scare me study until that i will go to the mental hospital or suicide in the future.oh please i won't do this silly this. So she ask me change to UTAR, my mind say what there also will make crazy lah please, 1 one fail = repeat. i don't want. OKAY please hope i can get pass 2.0 please thanks god.i already half year didn't update my blog so sorry. And my mum thanks for your support and i love u forever." Sarang hae yo omma"